Hello love, I’m Beth…

A deep feeler, thinker and explorer

From a very young age I perceived that it was not safe to be me and was most definitely not safe to feel 

And so I learnt to suppress. I studied people for guidance on how it was safe to express and be. I became an expert at pleasing others. Changing myself like a chameleon to fit in with whoever’s company I was in

Locked deep in thought trying to understand what was wrong with me and fearing the next potential failing or rejection. And along the way becoming more and more lost  

The suppression turned to anxiety. Anxiety turned to depression. Panic resulted in control of my food. It was a downward spiral from here 

With love and support I came back to life

And in this rebirth, something deep within me, yearned for a happier and easier way. Surely, it was not meant to be so painful living in my own skin and head

This was probably the beginning of my self help book addiction!!

For many years, I soothed myself with friends, partying, travelling and various forms of hedonism 

I dived into different obsessions - work, volunteering, capoeira…

And then I fell in love with the man who saw ME. He was the one. And i said “I do”

There was always still an undertone of anxiety, the critical voices and all my dysfunctional ways that I’d developed to suppress my big feels and deep thoughts 

When I fell pregnant and discovered hypnobirthing, it was one of the most liberating moments in my life. It was the first time, I managed to shift the self doubt that was deep in my bones, into self belief. And it felt amazing 

I birthed in my power and I felt invincible 

That was until the reality and responsibility of raising a little lady kicked in 

It wasn’t the sleepless nights, or poos, or crying or any of that practical stuff that stressed me

It was the deep fears and guilt that maybe I wasn’t a good enough mum and I was going to fail my child

This fear and guilt got louder and louder, the more vocal and expressive Arabella became 

Arabella was wild and pure feminine energy at it’s finest. She danced, screamed, laughed, cried, spoke to anyone and everyone. She took up lots of space

She triggered me big time. And my heart would close. And I would feel even more shame that I couldn’t give her the love and holding that she deserved

But I couldn’t hold this powerful, confident little being. At the time, I judged her as too much. She was not the quiet, obedient little girl I expected. And I got angry when I couldn’t tame her. I have forgiven myself for these judgements

But at the time, something felt wrong and shameful. I couldn’t explain it. Adrian always said I was doing a great job. Anyone would think I was a great mum on the outside but deep within I felt I was failing

When her brother came along and my connection with him was easier, she felt it. And she was angry! Even more shame seeped in 

Why was I finding it so hard to wholeheartedly love and hold this fiery, sassy little lady. And how could I raise such a confident girl, when I was so steeped in my own unworthiness and fear 

My healing began

I went on a deep journey with ThetaHealing, understanding where my unworthiness and fear of expression came from 

Unpeeling the layers that cloaked my heart and birthing into deeper self love, expression and safety

As soon as I started to find ways of loving myself and my own inner child, my heart opened and Arabella felt this too

There is nothing I am more grateful for than my wholehearted and intimate connection that I now have with my babes

As I went deeper into my own healings, I felt the strong call (that had been there since a child) to help and serve others

I trained first as a hypnobirthing teacher and then went on to qualify as a ThetaHealer, Sound Healer and EFT practitioner

My work organically unfolded and deepened but whether it was supporting pregnant women or healing trauma, at the core of it all was self-love and emotional expression

Now, I no longer teach hypnobirthing, but my years of experience working in the birth world helps me to deeply honour, empower and hold women as they transition through their own personal rebirth

I am here for it all - to live and love full

To keep transforming so I can hold more of life and express more of me

I am here for growth and transformation 

My commitment to self love and self expression is shared with those women that I support

Whether it is through group programmes or private sessions, I am here to help you awaken to your own inner well of love and to find the safety within to express your magic and power out to the world

The world is waiting with open arms…

Thank you for reading

Sending you so much love x